young days

when i was young maybe 7 years old i have a big closet in our bed room im supposed to change my clothes and i cant open it because mama big lock it.and i cant reach the locker so i need to jump jump jump until it will open.and then suddenly i was thinking someday i dont need to jump..when i grow up..

Since i was in grade school this guy really capture my heart.I had a huge crush with him.I'm so inlove with this guy.I will drop at therr store just to check if he was still there.He was a pure chinese.Every girl in our municipality likes him.Its not impossible that many girls like him because he was really handsome.It was tested and proven.hehe He can have every girls that he wants. He's really nice to be with, He was really captiviting, Everytime, I see him smilling I always end up saying "SHITT,..Where did this guy came from?. He's driving me insane. He was really cute. Can i have him?. I know that it was really obvious that im dying to have him everytime when were together.ahhw..hehe I know that he knows that i had a huge crush on him. He was my childhood crush until now, Now that im in college still wants him..ahhw.hehe He was fascinating, He's eyes and smile calls your attention. He was a breathtaking guy. The girl who own his heart,mind and attention was really lucky. When it comes to him its hard for me to show the real me. When he's there in front of me, I cant understand my self. I feel that everybody who is watching was really insecure because I have a chance to get more closer to him. It was really great, Everytime I see he's gentle face,those expressive eyes those lovely dimples on your right cheek. The most awaited part of my life has come it happened last April 2008,were together at the beach. I feel very luck, Its like I already reach the star that i've wanted long time ago. hat was our first date. I was deeply inlove with this guy  but nothings happen at that night eventhough, I was dying to have him. He told me that im going to leave my boyfriend and then we become one but, I never listen to what he said. I think i was the first girl who junk him or the first that SAY No! to him. That night was really unforgettable . I know it will never happen again. I really want him, I really want to be part of his life.....Wanna know why i junk him?...because I dont want to get hurt.Every girls wants him and Every girl that he wants he can have anytime. I only want to be the biggest part of his life not one of his victims. Your always on MY HEART eventhough I am NOTHING SPECIAL TO YOU. I know your just playing with me and enjoying your life now. That is one of the hundred reasons why I junk you. I'm always here waiting for you (waiting in vain?.)hehe "YOU ARE THE MAN OF MY DREAMS".

This is the 1st part of My Journey..